more tea?

I like the feeling of hush hush with you but I must talk anyway and feel like I'm walking on a few egg shells over my issues of you walking on my eggshells. cringing at my "ahem." babies babies babies fertility. lol I've just been stuck in my own dogma of nature and signs and typical traditionl/cliché/normal ways people go about. Protection protection protection… "Forgiveness." A lot of it is understandings people have where sometimes forgiveness isn't an option because it is an offense to forgive. I feel provoked over the statement "don't let them continue to hurt you." You stand in the way of my truth. You deny or refuse to accept the fact that I get stalked, ganged up on, and feed the vain argument that I was always willing. Years and years ago and sometimes an intentional sadist on occasion will want to severely provoke and test me in the worst conceited way "With what I will or won't let happen." Sometimes it feels like someone will never want to stop in trying to either intentionally keep me robbed to my face with their vain sadism; they have to be the one who calls the shots; they hate the ways I don't play by their rules and want to force their rules on me. They want to be a cut throat. I know you could have made a generally speaking statement, but you look like you want to go into further detail with what in the world is my problem with issues of forgiveness? I understand the world to be very narcissistic and competitive and to many, forgiveness is never a thing that is immediately in the head. People are who they are. They act the way they act. They will hit you the same way again. You did want to add that people know they should have their self respect with "you don't let them hurt you again." (People have had their worst grave issues against me in wanting me to give up on my self respect). It isn't you are against a person keeping their self respect, but you put the fault and responsibility on that person anyway. I have issues boat 15. I have issues. It is like there have been instances where people will purposely lie to me just to purposely molest me with "I was the one who let" People are out to get me boat 15. It may not always be as bad as it once was but I know I get harassed and stalked often. The sobs of my demand for better protection come and go. I would never see myself as out to intentionally hurt or compete to call a person a fool first or on purpose. (when I am being stockholmed anything goes) While some people can make me guess better, a good number are out to intentionally be that jerk and want to make me feel that they have me beat and place their dominate credit over my life. This where my conflict with forgiveness is: it doesn't change anything about the dominance a person gives their self and the way they feel they have you beat and you have to be subjected to their judgment and rules. These narcs won't understand what forgiveness is. These narcs will never feel they have done wrong. A narc might not feel provoked if you forgive them but the narc will still be the same narc who won't change the control they want to have. I just scream for a better protection and respect Boat 15. I scream for a better protection and respect. … PS If you are or eventually plan to pimp me, I seriously do not want Shawn S. I'm not crazy about the way you look like him a little and I fear you have a share with him. But "no" to Shawn.